In chemo school they gave me a binder with a list of general chemo side effects. For each corresponding number there are several pages of additional side effects. They give me medicine to combat some of these side effects- and those have side effects. I even created some of my own side effects in addition to these. If there was a commercial for chemo I’m sure I would learn of new side effects.
- Bone Marrow Suppression
- Anemia
- Bleeding/Bruising
- Infection
- Nausea
- Hair Loss
- Appetite Changes
- Constipation
- Diarrhea
- Dehydration
- Mouth and Throat changes
- Fatigue
- Blood clots
- Nervous System Changes/ Neuropathy
- Pain
- Chemo Brain
- Hearing Problems
- Flu-like symptoms
- Urinary, Kidney, and Bladder Changes
- Infertility
- Sexual Changes
- Fluid Retention
- Skin and Nail Changes
The main side effect that I experience from chemo isn’t even listed- hypotension. Super low blood pressure. I bought one of those arm band squeeze machines so I can track it at home and the jury is still out if that is a good or bad idea. It hovers in the 70’s range. I constantly feel light-headed and on the verge of passing out.
The most painful part of chemo is a side effect of the side effect of #8- a tear in my rectum-that’s right- a major pain in my ass- the neighbors can probably hear me screaming. I don’t need to get into great detail, but I did get a thorough probing by a nice colorectal surgeon yesterday. There really isn’t an easy fix either. I take lots of hot baths, and if it’s still bad in a month, there is a potential botox solution that is not advisable during chemo. My friends, please take a moment to be thankful for your ass holes.
While I was getting probed yesterday, my daughter Luna was at the pediatrician getting diagnosed with Hand Foot and Mouth Disease. This is a virus that turns cute babies into rashy, feverish, drooling, fussy germ bombs. Adults usually carry the virus without any symptoms, but because of side effects 1, 2 and 4, I am supposed to be quarantined. I lasted a few hours without contact before I was wiping Luna’s nose and butt.
First I’m a mom, and then I am a mom with cancer.
Is this a public space for me to complain? Maybe this week. But this is real, and I’m not always a positive person. Today is my fifth day of being knocked down from round 3. Tomorrow I will be back up and at ’em.
The Breast of Times 
Dear Diana,
As painful as it is to read your accounts, it is the most accurate, detailed account I have ever seen, though it with several friends.
Your resilience is stunning. Just stay the course-you are tough, powerful, and good.
We love you!
Carolyn and Bill Curry
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Dear Diana,Is this public when I write to you?Do you care/want any returns.I’m reading this am, and I’m going to dedicate my BM to you.If fact I am going to always wipe all think healing thoughts for you.You are coming to mind from time to time, a teacher, a healer, and a brave and honest woman.Thanks for the education as long as your willing to share! You can complain all you want!!!!
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Diana-
I love how you write about all the painful side effects of chemo with humor and optimism. I really enjoy reading your blogs not only because of your insightful remarks but also to keep up to date with everything you are doing and feeling. I feel like I am there with you, next to you, even though it is in spirit. Keep strong SISTER!!! As I tell my kids- you can do it!
xo
Dana
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